An escape

"Why? Why do you think you can come 30 minutes late, and have it be okay?" My wife, as usual, is yelling at me for the like tenth time today. Yeah and guess what else I have only been home today for like a total of 15 minutes to a half an hour. Everyday it is the same old thing: Why don't you take the trash out? Why aren't you home on time? Where were you? Why are you so crabby lately? Can't we just talk anymore? Why don't you help with the baby? UGH, I am just getting so sick of it. Yeah sure I would help with the baby, but every time I try to change the diaper or put some clothes on it you just do it again right afterwords like I did a bad job doing it. I am crabby because you keep yelling at me all the time for having to stay an extra 15 minutes at work because I have to make some sort of income for this household. You, your not getting paid right now because you have to take care of the baby. We need the money honey! Of course though I couldn't say any of this to her. Oh god I would be in so much trouble it isn't even funny.

"Are you even listening to a word I am saying John?" my wife asked in a pissed off tone. "Yes dear, sorry just thinking about something at work-" That was the wrong thing to say. "AT WORK? AT WORK? YOU SPEND ALL DAY THEIR AWAY FROM HERE, AND SO WHEN YOU COME HOME YOU CAN JUST CONTINUE TO THINK ABOUT? WHY NOT ACTUALLY HELP ME, THINK ABOUT ME AND THE EFFING BABY JOHN!" Oh great here we go. See what I mean by saying that was the wrong thing to say? "Sorry baby. I am sorry, is their anything you want me to do?" Yeah I bet their is something she wants me to do, but will she ask me? Nope she won't you just wait. "John no there isn't anything . . . . . . . WAIT actually yes, JUST LEAVE! GET OUR NOW! Get out of the house, and just get out of my life!"

"Wait what? Jessica what are you talking about? I love you, you love me, why would you kick me out of the house? More importantly out of your life?" She got up of her chair at the dinner table, and shoved me out of the door I had just come through from coming home from work. "AND JUST STAY OUT!" She yelled while slamming the door shut. "What the fuck?" I said allowed. What just happened? I mean she just kicked me out. Is it over between us? I am just so confused. What in the hell did I do wrong? Yeah sure I came home a little late, but I have been doing that a lot lately because I have had to stay at the office. She knows that, I know she knows that! She had better know that. All the things I have done for her, all the things I have given up to be with her and Jackson, our child. I could have been a major author. I could have countless amount of time to finish my book, and get it published and make millions. I was always told it was going to be great by my old agent, but I chased after love my love for Jessica. Look where that has taken me?

I sat their on the sidewalk for what felt like an hour or so. I just sat their thinking about what my life could have been what it would be if I hadn't fallen in love. Wait though, wait just a minute! This is an escape. Yes, this is perfect I can get away for a few days and just clear my head. I don't think I would leave forever, because I still love her, but this is it. I can get away for a few days and just have an escape. I can go see a movie, maybe even in my favorite way to see a movie, in IMAX. I could just drive and dive that is always a good way to just clear my head. I could finish reading a novel even possibly. This is just perfect, this is the perfect escape from my world.

What if she won't take me back though? What if, right now she is expecting me to come back through that door. This is an escape though. Should I give it up? What do I do? All I know is that I love Jennifer and I never have, and never will regret choosing the life I chose one year ago! What do I do? I could lose her forever right here and right now.

This is a fictional story written by Noah Bitney